May 19, 2012


just wanna tell ya about May 17th.
1st, my sister back to town (?) after such a long time in semarang for her college.
2nd, S1LENCE celebrated Tika's birthday party in Istana Nelayan
3rd, Hilda Shabrina's birthday Party
4th, went to 'like the earth' (re:sukabumi) with fams.

 just wanna share some picts.

yuyun, sujan, dipta, me

 ditha, ersa

dipta, ditha

sujan, the birthday girl (tika), ditha

S1LENCE, with ega, didi

in hilda's

May 14, 2012

Taekwondo Tournament

well yesterday i went to Tangerang Open Taekwondo Tournament, with my S1LENCE, Mr. A, and ewok.

just realizing that taekwondo is little bit make me afraid. 
sedikit anarkis tepatnya, ngeliat orang nendang kepala orang, ngeliat orang nendang tangan orang, ngeliat orang nendang muka orang, ngeliat orang nendang perut orang, ngeliat orang nendang angin, ngeliat orang jatoh, ngeliat orang nangis, ngeliat orang kesakitan, ngeliat orang senang, ngeliat orang bajunya sama semua, ngeliat cowo meluk cowo di tengah lapangan,

every weird thing that i never ever seen and know. but at all it's amazing. and FYI my mommy ask me to join the program, but mom how could i do some of that stuff?! maybe i could make the patience of Sabem lose because of my attitude -_-v 

and for Mr. A, i don't allow you to join taekwondo, i won't to see you hug another man -_-

 Me and Mr. A, well we wore the same barca shirt :)

May 12, 2012

Would it be the last? Would it be the end? or something will happen but in the different way?
is it mean good bye? or just something out of plan?

Because of You

this is the song i sing for my musical test. Everything has a reason and that's not my reason to post it here, but because the lyrics is so like my mood rite now.

Because of You

Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Could you be the sun?

Could you love me like the light of the sun? so bright, so brave, and never lose it shine? Could you show me your love in the rite moment like when the sun goes rise? and could you love me just in the shadow hiding for me like when the sun goes set? make me know your light always there and waiting for the time, could you be like that to me? and only for me?
i hope you can understand why my heart now becoming pieces, i hope you can understand that i'm not perfect and i need you, like every living thing love the sun, and like everything needed.

Stereo Hearts.

Sam, i'm in love:*

What I Wanna Be


heaven and God arms
be with the one who made for me for the rest of my life.
make them proud of my self
have a great family
be a real moslem
wear Hijab
happily life
success on job
be famous
give benefits for people
travel around the world
good mark
be honored
be special
happily ever after
and much more ... 

P.S wish that they would become true, amen.

The Sims

well i'm addicted again with this games 

maybe for some people it's a kind of boring games, but for me it's like building my life wanna be, feel like having a second change to build your life perfectly.
be the neighbor of my sims, add me on facebook, and give me some gift :)

P.S i always lose energy and money in this games, but my sims is beautiful, just like me :p

my Prince?

There's a big difference of people who's waiting and hoping for someone's coming

give me much $!

HARD to save
EASY to spend
HARD to get
EASY to lose

just hoping i could control my wallet! money money be nice to me, money money don't hate me.

hard to forget, hard to accept, hard to move.

just remembering part of an old song lyrics

Baby don't talk to meI'm trying to let go.Not loving you is harder, then you know.

Past is cooler.

well forget about my random feeling, just wanna share some picts from the past. well not my past, but the history.
few weaks ago my S1LENCE go to some museums in jakarta, there're Satria Mandala and Crocodile Hole (re: Lubang Buaya-_-v)

Satria Mandala

Me and tandins 

Lubang Buaya

Me and everything i wanna have, Mr. A 

now i'm not going to tell about history because you can get it in the books and it's sooooooo long.
i just think that indonesia in the past is more gorgeous than now, with all that cool stuff from the past, plane, hely, ship, weapon, just like in movie!
wish the better of Indonesia.

i'm so random rite now, dunno what to do, dunno what i feel. just wanna cry and cry.
sorry for spamming
sorry for disturbing
just ignoring me.


Love is like Cloud. it looked white soft fragile from the outside, but there must be moment when it be dark, drop the tears, and disappear.

one and half isn't enough.

well Today is May 12th,

Happy 18th Monthsary Mr. A

i do love you, i don't know what's goin on with us. but thanks for today, thanks for the lovely choco pudding you made for me, thanks for the tears you made me to drop, thanks for all of our story for the last 18 months.

love, me.

May 11, 2012

To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. 
David Viscott

Mr. A i love you.
Today is May 11th, then tomorrow will be May 12th.

Happy 18th monthsary Mr. A i love you, and always trying to be the best for you.

for Mr. A outhere, you know i love you and i always do.

AnotherStory, AnotherCity.

P city, the city where's my mother was born. the city which i declared as my hometown.

grand and mom :*

 mark and delvin, my lovely nephews. look and them and realizing i'm getting older and older every year.



Ratoeh Inong Delta

We're saman dancers, we're girls, we're delta (8 tangerang).
  We're Ratoeh Inong Delta!
we got much transformation,we're not butterflies but we got our metamorphosis.

There we go,

from this

to this

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and then with lot of pray and trying our best, we get what we want
1. experience
2. be the winner. CONGRATULATION Ratoeh Inong Delta!

big thanks for Allah, for our family, for Bang Mundzin and Bang Fadhil. We did it! Yeay!

May 2, 2012

HELLO bloggy, dunno what to post. just sharing activities today.

1. Hari ini hari Pendidikan Nasional
2. Anak lapan freeclass ga belajar
3. Acara kartinian diadain hari ini (21April-2Mei itu jauh emang)
   -ada chef kartono
   -pemilihan putri delta
   -mading+hias kelas
   yang semuanya gua gatau kabarnya karena ini....
4. Ratoeh Inong Delta (nama tim saman sman 8 tangerang, sekolah gue O:)) ikut lomba louuuuuuh, picts nya cooming soon and on the way upload, pengumumannya belom tau tapi bismillah menang.


just wanna post my assignment, i'm comin' with peace

this pict is the way i honor my ict's teacher mrs. Dina Fitriamurad in my SMAN 8 Tangerang.